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2 Almost three months after losing her beloved daughter to a long-term illness, Lisa Curry has made a heartbreaking admission.
Jaimi Kenny, the oldest daughter of Ms Curry and fellow Olympian Grant Kenny, died in September at the age of 33.
She “passed away peacefully” surrounded by her friends and family at the Sunshine Coast University Hospital, her heartbroken mum confirmed at the time
Ms Curry has taken to Instagram a number of times over the past few months to mourn her daughter and celebrate her short life.
Her latest post is nothing short of heartbreaking.
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Accompanying a lengthy message about her grieving struggles, Ms Curry uploaded a photo of herself gazing out at a lake on her Gold Coast hinterland property.
“There’s a few certainties in life … birth, death and change … Some change is out of your control leaving you empty and uncertain … and suddenly your whole world is turned upside down. Everything you once knew is now not as it was,” she wrote.
“Every positive and fun thought you once had is now in doubt and challenged.
“A situation you’ve never been in before can feel daunting, uncomfortable, filled with challenges, problems, mistakes and fear, not having any idea of what to do, where to go or how to do it, if you need help or if you can do it on your own?”
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In the post, Ms Curry said she was in the process of working through her grief alone — despite her loved ones encouraging her to seek professional help.
“Sometimes when I’ve been in situations where I haven’t known what to do and I’ve been on my own … I’ve had no choice but to just work it out myself,” she said.
“Did I succeed? Sometimes. Sometimes not … but it wasn’t whether I won or lost, succeeded or failed, changed or not – it’s what it made of me trying … and those lessons are for life. “What those changes made of me was far greater than the result. I became stronger, and more determined, or on the other side … softer and more forgiving …
“People are telling me to seek out help… with psychologists, doctors, people who have been through what I am facing at the moment … but I know in my heart, that I actually have the answers myself.”
Ms Curry said the loss of her oldest daughter had left her feeling lost and not herself.
“Somehow, this change I find myself in now is testing my very being. Some days I don’t even feel like me anymore, or being me anymore,” she said.
“It feels like it’s changing my direction and I’m OK with that.
“Because I know … change can be good.
“It’s a process … and I’m not quite sure where to start, but soon I’ll figure it out.
“I know that one small thing leads to another, then leads to another until what’s achieved is a big thing.
“It’s just that I don’t know which small thing to start with is yet ......why is that so damn hard?”
Ms Curry has been open about her grieving process, often taking to social media to draw strength from her followers.
The day after Jaimi died, Ms Curry said she could “barely breathe” after losing her daughter.
“Our hearts are completely broken,” she wrote. “Our beautiful daughter Jaimi has lost her battle with a long-term illness and passed away peacefully in hospital (on Monday) morning with her loving family by her side.
“So loved. So beautiful. So kind to everyone … So painful. I can barely breathe.
“Jaimi will forever be remembered as a caring, bright and loving soul who always put others before herself. Her love of flowers, cooking, art, decorating, photography, babies, the beach, and helping others will always be remembered.
“Our hearts are broken and the pain is unbearable but we cherish every wonderful moment we got to share with our treasured and so loved first child.”
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